Author: Wonn

I'm all about creating things, from comics to video games -- only when I'm creating do I feel like myself. I made this website in September 2016. But it all started on Christmas in 2012 when my first daughter was born. It changed everything. The biggest joy came with the realization of being responsible for another human being, which put me in constant self-doubt, anxiety, and panic. I struggled to balance motherhood and work, which I found was a battle that's doomed to fail. In the process of making all the difficult decisions and seeking a peace of mind, I've been learning, changing and growing every day, together with my children. I'm an introvert who rarely inserts herself into conversations, but if you give me a pen, I will draw anything that comes to my mind. After almost 4 years of being occupied with children, working, and thinking, the urge to create an outlet pushed me to document my life. I want to make things that tell the truth. I want to make things that are close to my heart. I want to make things that after they are grown, my children will read and laugh, and they will understand who I am. I want to share my stories to connect with people. My family is my primary source of inspiration. If this will benefit them in any way in the future, it will be a dream come true. For everyone who enjoys my work, I’m happy that we share the feelings and a dry sense of humor. Weng Chen

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Watching TV is my guilty pleasure, and these are some of my favorite shows. One of the fun thing about watching TV is that I like to imagine myself as the main character in all these stories. All these shows are pretty stressful but man, those poor people in Game of Thrones.

Bonus panel ( If you could think of any human beings you could be in GOT please let me know):

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It’s really just a normal day, and I made a video about it. I don’t want to wait for the perfect stories to make videos because if you want to do something, get the material you have and just do it. Plus, making normal things interesting is a skill.

It’s in Chinese!

I got into video making lately and it’s soo much fun! I’m glad to learn another creative way of documenting and sharing my life. This one was shot on my old LG Android phone and a Nikon D90– Not the perfect setting for making videos, but hey you get to start from somewhere. I just got a Canon G7X and the new videos will have better quality.

I’m speaking Chinese mostly in my videos because it’s what I’m comfortable with. I talk to my children in Chinese and my husband in English in real life.

The bilingual thing has always been a complication in my creative world because I have to consider audiences from both languages. English isn’t my native language and is my weak spot, but my life is in the US, and I care about people on this side of the world. I can communicate in Chinese much more freely and creatively. Even it’s so far away, China is my home country, so I also care about the audience there. So I’ve been translating my comics into Chinese and trying to build an audience there.

It’s a lot of work to keep up both sides, I wish I could just focus on one. But both have pros and cons, and it’s hard for me to make a decision. For now, I keep working and see.

Making videos is new to me, I want to put them out as quick as I can so I picked the easier language and didn’t bother adding subtitles. I’m exploring so if you have any suggestions, please let me know!

So I promised to tell you why I haven’t updated the website for over a week, and here is the reason: I used my birthday as an excuse to slack. It’s a dangerous slippery slope to look for excuses because it’s easy and you will always find one. It leads to nothing.

Oh, and if you ever wondered what’s the name Messycow is about, she is here to meet you!

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